Re-posting from my fetlife:
"As with any aspect of life there are pros and cons in this lifestyle. Days like today, it just hurts.
There was a post recently about not getting too invested. I think that may be my primary mistake. I always say I will trust someone until they give me a reason not to. In other words, if your looking for someone who is easy to take advantage of, that would be me. Go ahead and hit "friend request" now. What's that? I'm feeling sorry for myself?
Well, yeah actually I am.
Sometimes, you reach out to someone and they don't respond. That sucks. You wonder why, what is it about you that is so unappealing they can't even bear to respond?
And then, there are times where you spend days, weeks, months, even years building up a relationship with someone just to get dropped off with no explanation whatsoever. That sucks too.
Welcome to today.
Its not the first time its happened. I'm sure it won't be the last. You would think I would learn from it. Maybe I'll finally learn not to trust people until they prove they can be trusted.
Yeah right.
In the meantime, go ahead and hit that friend request.
I'll be sitting here feeling sorry for myself and waiting for you, because I know you will find me.
I'll trust you, and you'll hurt me.
And that sucks.
Welcome to today."
~sugar
