And so, it happened.
You guessed it....I got spanked.
Why?
Well.....there's a few good reasons. With everything that's been happening with family and our community, our lifestyle-while not completely on hold-has been pushed away. Oh sure, correction has happened when it needed to. But not a real, full spanking....more of an attention grabber or quick attitude adjustment. And so, it was definitely overdue.
Now the part I don't want to admit....with all the stress that's been happening with me, I ended up having two fender bender accidents with my car in the course of two weeks. Neither was serious, both involved me not paying attention. And while Ace has been tolerant of me and taking into account my emotional state, this is going to cost us money to have the car fixed and there's the fact that if I had been having attention issues on the road the way I have in the parking lot/garage (where the accidents each happened respectively), I could have had a much bigger problem.
And <sigh> that's not all of it my friends.....no no, because see when I do stupid things, I tend to do them in groups.....
The other day, I walked in from work and was greeted by Husband as always: "How did everything go? How are you?" kind of stuff. I made the stupid mistake of blurting out "Geeze, I thought for sure I was getting nabbed there!"
Crickets.
And then:
Him: "Why do you say that? _____ Mae, what did you do?" (full name....shit, I'm dead)
me: "Ummmm....well.....there's that Sheriff's car that always likes to park at the end of the road there so he can see people right when they come around the corner..."
Him: (edge creeping in to His voice) "That's not what I asked you is it?"
me: "Well, no...."
SWAT!
(So, that one happened before I ever even saw it coming guys....and can I just say....yowch!)
Him: "No what, first?"
me: "No Sir, I'm sorry"
Him: "That's better. Now....what did you do?"
me: (mumbling) "I might have driven home without my seat belt on"
Him:(angry) "You drove all the way home....without your seat belt on?"
me: "Well, it's only two miles....it's not that far!"
Him: "Does that really make a difference?"
me : "Well.....no, I guess not."
Suddenly, His hand was in my hair pulling it tight while His other hand moved to gently hold my throat.
Him:(quiet, but oh so very stern) "I don't know what's going on with you today, but you are having serious respect issues. You will not say another word. Go to the bedroom, remove all of your clothes, put the pillows in the middle of the bed, and wait for me....in the corner. Go now."
Damn.
Of course, He was obeyed, and I got a good solid spanking....for being disrespectful to Ace first, and for being stupid second. His hand was followed by the bamboo spoon, the leather paddle, Lexan, and a hard whipping with His belt.
After it was over and I had been held and told I was forgiven, Ace talked with me about the damage to the car, and how this session had been for disrespect and for engaging in a dangerous behavior, but out of love for me, He was forgiving the damage to the car as well and counting it all as paid for.
And so, the slate is once again clean....for a little while at least. You can bet your bottom dollar I'm wearing my seat belt both to and from work every day, lesson learned! The respect issue has taken longer for me to forgive myself for. I am, and always will be, a true submissive....I truly don't know what got into me that day, or why I couldn't see (until later) how disrespectful I was being to Ace. That's not ever where I want to be, and I am so thankful to have Him in my life to correct me and guide me back to the path I long to be on with all my heart...even when my mouth doesn't always cooperate!
I'm a lucky girl.
All the best,
~sugar
Thursday, February 15, 2018
Thursday, January 18, 2018
It's been awhile......
Wow, I can't believe how long its been since I've even visited my own blog!
So catching up:
Life has thrown some serious curveballs at me this past year. In the space of 12 months I have lost one of my siblings and another is currently missing, believed to have passed away but has not yet been found.
We (Ace and I) faced a very dark time in October of 2016 as my sister had just passed away and then we faced a police inquiry on a false charge brought against us regarding our child. In the course of that inquiry, the lifestyle we lead was brought up and attempts were made to use that as proof of some kind of wrongdoing against our child (which would never, ever happen in a million years) and it subsequently lead to many doubts/fears about continuing our lifestyle after being so demonized for it. It was truly one of the hardest times of my life.
But we rallied. As we always do. And just when we got through that hard time, the phone call that would send us spiraling again came through....
The last few months of 2017 have been surrounded by sadness, confusion, and loss that has continued into these first months of 2018. We're fighting as hard as we can, once again against an incredible loss of a loved one and once again against false charges being hurled at us....
I promise its not all gloom and doom, although it certainly sounds and feels that way sometimes. We are taking the high road always, and just as before, those who are bringing these charges against us will find out very quickly that within our personal lives and within our community involvement, we govern ourselves with integrity and are above any reproach. What we do as a couple in our private lives is not unlawful, harmful, or in any other way criminal nor is it any of any one else's business despite what they may think or any attempt to use it against us.
Ace remains as ever my one true love and the one I wrap myself up in and around during these storms. He lets me cry, scream, or rant when I need to, but applies a loving hand when needed too. He knows, and I'll admit, that I don't want to be a spiteful or vindictive person although far too often that's the side of me that comes out. And then He's there to lovingly correct and set me back on the path we both know I should be following. Throughout all this difficult loss and times of darkness, He has been right there to dry my tears, hold me, and guide me through it. I don't know what I would do without Him, I can't imagine how I would have gotten through this without Him beside me.
I started a new job in the fall of 2017 and I absolutely love it! My new co-workers are caring and supportive, and I work in a fantastic place! :) I wish I could say more, but it is quite unique and would give my identity away quickly, so I'll just stick with saying I love it! :)
And so life continues on. I am going to try to get back to this blog and start writing again. I have missed it, and all of you my dear readers. I'll be writing when I can, I look forward to re-connecting both with the experience of writing and with you.
All the best,
~sugar
So catching up:
Life has thrown some serious curveballs at me this past year. In the space of 12 months I have lost one of my siblings and another is currently missing, believed to have passed away but has not yet been found.
We (Ace and I) faced a very dark time in October of 2016 as my sister had just passed away and then we faced a police inquiry on a false charge brought against us regarding our child. In the course of that inquiry, the lifestyle we lead was brought up and attempts were made to use that as proof of some kind of wrongdoing against our child (which would never, ever happen in a million years) and it subsequently lead to many doubts/fears about continuing our lifestyle after being so demonized for it. It was truly one of the hardest times of my life.
But we rallied. As we always do. And just when we got through that hard time, the phone call that would send us spiraling again came through....
The last few months of 2017 have been surrounded by sadness, confusion, and loss that has continued into these first months of 2018. We're fighting as hard as we can, once again against an incredible loss of a loved one and once again against false charges being hurled at us....
I promise its not all gloom and doom, although it certainly sounds and feels that way sometimes. We are taking the high road always, and just as before, those who are bringing these charges against us will find out very quickly that within our personal lives and within our community involvement, we govern ourselves with integrity and are above any reproach. What we do as a couple in our private lives is not unlawful, harmful, or in any other way criminal nor is it any of any one else's business despite what they may think or any attempt to use it against us.
Ace remains as ever my one true love and the one I wrap myself up in and around during these storms. He lets me cry, scream, or rant when I need to, but applies a loving hand when needed too. He knows, and I'll admit, that I don't want to be a spiteful or vindictive person although far too often that's the side of me that comes out. And then He's there to lovingly correct and set me back on the path we both know I should be following. Throughout all this difficult loss and times of darkness, He has been right there to dry my tears, hold me, and guide me through it. I don't know what I would do without Him, I can't imagine how I would have gotten through this without Him beside me.
I started a new job in the fall of 2017 and I absolutely love it! My new co-workers are caring and supportive, and I work in a fantastic place! :) I wish I could say more, but it is quite unique and would give my identity away quickly, so I'll just stick with saying I love it! :)
And so life continues on. I am going to try to get back to this blog and start writing again. I have missed it, and all of you my dear readers. I'll be writing when I can, I look forward to re-connecting both with the experience of writing and with you.
All the best,
~sugar
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